It’s a different version of me.

Hello World.

I really do believe every human is capable, I had a thought today that all knowledge is already there, it’s our job to find it and strive. It’s not that difficult, it just requires persistence.

I feel like I don’t procrastinate as much as I used to, my grinding game is on a different level, I really do feel like God is on my side.

I do believe that I will make it in the world, it’s funny you know, I used to be considered the dumb one in the family, the student who can’t focus or grasp anything, I used to be told that I was frustrating to teach, I had that in mind for the longest time, I just found out I had and still have a problem with communicating what I know, saying it loud, therefore most people think my brain is blank.

However, today, I have learned that I am more, I am not stupid, nor am I incapable, I am a hard worker and it will get me to where I am supposed to be in the world InshAllah.

Never think you are worthless, no matter how cliche you think that is, DO NOT think you are nothing, the knowledge is there, you just need to find it.

 

Lu

Pressing the ‘Edit’ button on my attitude.

Sitting at my managers office today, looking through sealing high windows at a view over-looking the sea and cloudy skies, for a moment I felt like I was alone in the world, I could hear myself breath and all I wanted was to talk to someone.

And I did…

I felt the presence of the One who created me, I knew he could hear my screaming soul and silent lips, I sighed and I spoke to Him, I told Him about my plans and how I am thankful for all the skills He has gifted me, I told Him about the bad things I have done and how much I wanted to change… I told him about the amount of love I had with no way to show it.

He responded…

I felt a sense of relief, I felt like no matter what, He would be there for me, no matter how much I distanced myself, He would come for me and sooth all my pain. The idea got me thinking, why do I stress myself all too often, things happen and sometimes, I just need to embrace the change.

I take a deep breath and I am back to reality, it felt quite strange to be back, but it felt good.

Alhamdolelah.

 

Lu

 

Blessed by the rain

Who else gets super excited when waking up to the sound of rain tapping on their window? I woke up this morning feeling super fresh, even though I wouldn’t have minded an extra hit on the snooze button.

It always seems to remind me of my childhood days, when I’d splash in every puddle with my bright yellow wellies. Obviously mum would make a fuss about it each and every time (She might as well have gotten used to it by then living in the great pond called the UK).

This fine morning I had to take both my brothers to university, which they weren’t very happy about (Men!- well not all men). You see, my baby’s at the mechanic getting all primped up, and I needed my way around, so I ended up taking my brothers bundle of joy (If your not on the same page yet, I’m talking about the cars).

We were driving by making small talk, seeing that each one of us was half asleep. It was pouring outside, and then out of the blues we halt to a full stop!! The roads were flooded! We had to look  for so many ways out, until eventually we got to our destination in one peace. I on the other hand had to go to the office, which was on the other side of town. Took me an hour or so, but hey can’t complain, had some time to contemplate and just enjoy the tapping of the rain.

How soothing.

Love Lu